Home Agian

It’s been a couple months since I arrived home and being home is nice. But it also comes with a lot of adjustments.

It’s humbeling to realise that things you normally don’t even think about; getting in the car, going to the supermarktet, making plans, walking somewhere, deciding when you’re going home, suddenly aren’t so ‘‘everyday’’ anymore.

When I came home in the beginning I couldn’t drive. I couldn’t walk far. So if I needed to go somewhere, I needed someone to drive me. It’s humbeling to be so dependent on other people.

After the first 6 weeks physically it starts to get easier. You can walk around smoother and because of that you get a piece of your independence back.

You don’t need to ask someone to get your drink, to help you with cooking or getting in and out of the car. The basic things. All these things you take for granted because you could simply do them.

Being home also meant getting used to living in a full house of people again. I’m not used to having to consider someone else’s schedule anymore. To let them know where I’m going and what time I’ll be back. Whether I’ll be home for dinner or what time I need to be somewhere for rehab appointments so they can try to adjust their schedule to drop me off.

I’m basically living on my own since my 18th, it’s been a couple of years lol. So yeah, it took some getting used to.

I have to admit, the first couple of weeks at home were difficult. Not necessarily because anything was wrong, but because it’s a big adjustment. You go from having your own routine to needing other people for a lot of things.

I’m sure for my family it was an adjustment too. Usually I’m just home for a couple of weeks. Now it has been months. So yeh, mom, dad thanks for being patient with me :)

Good Times

Wedding B+C

Rehab itself has been pretty solid.

Since I’ve been home, we’ve been doing rehab five times a week and trying to get as much out of every session as possible. And I can see myself improving week by week, which is great!

I had a conversation with my physio, Bart, about ACL cases and he told me about the differences he sees between women and men.

One thing he mentioned really stuck with me.

Women tend to think and worry more about ‘small’ changes, little pains here and there, and whether something could be wrong. Men on the other hand need to be stopped and told: “don’t do this. Don’t do that. You’re going to make your knee worse.”

But the interesting part to me was that, regardless of that difference the mental side of rehab is a big battle for everyone. For some people it could be harder mentally than physically. I think I’m one of those people.

I’ll continue about that next time.